1. |
ceruse (full set)
32:20
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guess ive swallowed more than walls can bear
still i feel hallow, filled with rocks and hair
call it my weakness or a blackened sens of faith
call it my body or another place to store another's waste
fuck im dying on a table
just so i can be your quaver
pus filled, crust gilled
teeth coated in rust
i want to chew your heart
crates of offal, legs lined to the street
squeamish kickback, formenting my meat
id let you crawl in, just beg me sometime
its more than belly, its lying like a nursery rhyme
fuck im dying on a table
just so i can be your quaver
saturate me, arrogate me
just keep company long
i want to chew their hearts
Killed my judge just to dream again
Burnt the butter like a bloat head glutton
Hell I know how to castrate a demon
Hell it shows when I come back choking on the rain
Filled her mouth with my greasy change
Drained my blood and stored it for exchange
Fuck I know how whiskey came to kill me
Fuck it shows when shaking sweating kills the shame
Broke my hand so you'd call a name
Marrow fragments split my skin decay
We fell too fast, even nightmares couldn't brace you
For a past where I never tried to hate you
Now I'm shut out
Go away
It's for you
Not for me
guess my stomach is splitting
to let the carcass spread
pelvis filling with feathers
swelling legato cumming and sputtering sweat
brushing eyelids gone tender
ocher follows my hands
something is building to push me
over and over and over and over again
over and over and over and over again
skull shape haunted by films
your perfect arms on my waist
turning to kiss you feels natural
but chattering ticks make up the skin on your face
onyx needles make transfer
paring pink pith to fiber
tongue play scatters black inside
the maggots inside her slide through my organs like fire
the maggots inside her slide through my organs like fire
guess im sad
but giving it names makes it feel simpler
i wasnt ready to move on
if this is a winter come back and build me a home
swallow
try and keep it down
borrowed
from a livers crown
kept clean like drool on a body
kept green like grease on a stocking
i cant get out
cant get out of here
shallow
try and keep it thick
fallow
gagging jisom pitch
kept whole like cracks in a levee
kept creamed like pigs in a frenzy
i cant get out
cant get out of here
im only whole when i overuse
alcohol is my absolute ceruse
stomach turns hammers in my head
water burns cigarettes in bed
i see shapes all across the walls
i feel wet mauling at my pall
i hear screams from the window sills
i smell death smoking oxy pills
getting better hurts so god damn much
getting better hurts so god damn much
why the hell should i be clean
why the hell should i be clean
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2. |
tarrare
05:56
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guess ive swallowed more than walls can bear
still i feel hallow, filled with rocks and hair
call it my weakness or a blackened sens of faith
call it my body or another place to store another's waste
fuck im dying on a table
just so i can be your quaver
pus filled, crust gilled
teeth coated in rust
i want to chew your heart
crates of offal, legs lined to the street
squeamish kickback, formenting my meat
id let you crawl in, just beg me sometime
its more than belly, its lying like a nursery rhyme
fuck im dying on a table
just so i can be your quaver
saturate me, arrogate me
just keep company long
i want to chew their hearts
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3. |
go away
08:42
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Killed my judge just to dream again
Burnt the butter like a bloat head glutton
Hell I know how to castrate a demon
Hell it shows when I come back choking on the rain
Filled her mouth with my greasy change
Drained my blood and stored it for exchange
Fuck I know how whiskey came to kill me
Fuck it shows when shaking sweating kills the shame
Broke my hand so you'd call a name
Marrow fragments split my skin decay
We fell too fast, even nightmares couldn't brace you
For a past where I never tried to hate you
Now I'm shut out
Go away
It's for you
Not for me
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4. |
tickface/ceruse
12:55
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guess my stomach is splitting
to let the carcass spread
pelvis filling with feathers
swelling legato cumming and sputtering sweat
brushing eyelids gone tender
ocher follows my hands
something is building to push me
over and over and over and over again
over and over and over and over again
skull shape haunted by films
your perfect arms on my waist
turning to kiss you feels natural
but chattering ticks make up the skin on your face
onyx needles make transfer
paring pink pith to fiber
tongue play scatters black inside
the maggots inside her slide through my organs like fire
the maggots inside her slide through my organs like fire
guess im sad
but giving it names makes it feel simpler
i wasnt ready to move on
if this is a winter come back and build me a home
swallow
try and keep it down
borrowed
from a livers crown
kept clean like drool on a body
kept green like grease on a stocking
i cant get out
cant get out of here
shallow
try and keep it thick
fallow
gagging jisom pitch
kept whole like cracks in a levee
kept creamed like pigs in a frenzy
i cant get out
cant get out of here
im only whole when i overuse
alcohol is my absolute cerruse
stomach turns hammers in my head
water burns cigarettes in bed
i see shapes all across the walls
i feel wet mauling at my pall
i hear screams from the window sills
i smell death smoking oxy pills
getting better hurts so god damn much
getting better hurts so god damn much
why the hell should i be clean
why the hell should i be clean
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